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| Luckieez | Carlena | Nicky | Dumped |
| Jenn | Liza | Tiffany | Amile |
| Used | Ally | Ellie | Patience |
| Kelly | Sam | Consequences | Allie |
Luckieez
Hi my friendz call me LUCKIEEZ and I just want to share a story that has to do with not having sex.
I have known my boyfriend since i was 7 and we started dating 3 years ago. We have this special relationship and we are not afraid to talk to each other about sex etc.
I just turned fourteen and I have had urges. We were in my bedroom and he kissed me like he always does and we layed down and he was on top of me. Previously I had told him that I didn't want to have sex yet and he respected that.
I suggest u wait because If u have a BF that respects ur wishes and will wait for u, then u are lucky. When he laiyed on top of me he just kissed me and told me he wanted to hold me in his arms. It was a great feeling and one day soon i will give away my virginity to someone that i love.
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Carlena
The first time i had sex is at my brother house whitch my boyfriend lives. I'm 16 and he is 17. I didn't want to tell him that i have not had sex sex yet because he has.i was scarded to tell him to because he said he had sex with he other girlfriends. I have had oral sex with him, no big problem. We have been going out for 9 and half monthes now. We talk about having sex a lot. Afert my 16 birthday i said that i will have sex with you. He asked me if i was sure. i said yes. On my 16th birthday we went to my brother house to get drunk. Because my family thing is when one turns 16 thay are allowed to drink how much they want to. But i only had about 3 beers. My boyfriend about the same.
We were in his room because everyone had left the house. Everyone in the house was a sleep but us. we started to make out as usualy. One thing leaded to the other. We was at the part our clothes was off. He started to kiss me all over. Then he ask, "my are you sure you want to do this baby." I said, "yes". We used a condom. When he started into me it hurt a lot. I even started to cry. When he seen me cying he asked, "do you want me to stop." i said, "no." I really didn't bleed at all. We done it for about an hour or so. After the first time going in hurt then it stoped about 15 mins later.
After he cum. He said, "we have a problem the condom split in half" and "i went inside you." i started to freek out. Then he talked to me. The next morning we told his sister and my brother about what had happen. They told me to wait a month to see if i get my period or not. If i don't. We go from there on. My boyfriend told me no matter what happen he'll be their for me.
All i got to say about having sex is don't do it till you are ready in all ways. Use 2-3 condom and take birth controle. Hope for the best. And talk to the one you are going to do before you do it so you can see if you'll be with that person for a long of not.
AVERT.org: Using two condoms together is generally not recommended as the friction of the condoms rubbing together might make them both break. Using another form of birth control (such as the pill) as well as condoms is a good idea if you want to be sure of not becoming pregnant. However, when used properly, condoms on their own have a very low failure rate. If an accident does happen then you might want to think about talking to your doctor about getting emergency contraception and an STD test.
Nicky
Hi, My names Nicky and i lost my virginity when i was 14 and I'd like to share my experience with anyone who needs to know about it.
Before me an my boyfriend started dating, we were best friends and we trusted each other with everything, hes 1 and a half months younger than me, we had been best friends for a year when he asked if i wanted to take it to the next level, i agreed immediatly.
We had been goin out one month, when he asked me if i wanted to have sex with him, i sed i did but not right then and he totally understood. About two weeks later i knew i was ready, his mum was out and we were alone. He started kissing my next and asked me if i was sure i wanted this and he didnt want me to have any regrets. But i told him to keep going.
He fingered me, because he had sex with another girl before and he knew that it hurt her. when i felt i was ready we undressed each other and he laid me on the bed, and gently he pushed himself inside me, it really hurt, he gently tried again, and it still hurt.
I was so dissappointed and i felt as if i had let him down so badly. He held me and stroked my hair and told me it was fine, and if i wasn't ready then that was my choice. But i still wanted to do it, so he dried the tears from my face and laid me back down and gently went in again, this time i was more relaxed and it didnt hurt quite asmuch, he kept gently pushing in, then out, then in, then out untill i felt confortable , he started to go gently faster, after about 10minutes he asked if i wanted to change posititions and i said sure, he kept being gentle with me, and took really good care of me, he pulled out before he came, so we didnt have and accidents.
45minutes we had been going, but it only felt like seconds, it brought us closer together and we have been going out 6 months last week, its been the best ever. After we had had sex about 3times, his mum found a used condom and sat us both down for a talk, she agreed that she wouldn't tell my parents as long as me and my boyfriend did two things, 1.if we were goin to continue having sex that we wudnt make it obvious, and secondly, that we were really careful. And we are careful. and i reallly love him
Dumped
It happened on mothers day last year. I went round to my boyfriends house but didnt think we would do anythink, but i was wrong.
We was in his room watching a film when we started to kiss. He started to undo my trousers and went down. I thought this was all we would do because i didn't think i was ready to loose my virginity to him and plus we was only together a week that day. After this he asked me if i wanted to give him **** so i said yes. Then after that we was just lying down watching film and he turned round to face me and went down again.
Then he said i don;t even think if my **** will fit up you. He said do you want me to try and for some strange reason i said yes. So he went in and asked if i wanted him to carry on, i said yes but i don't know why. After a bit he asked if i wanted to go on top so i did. Then after that i told him to stop because we weren't using a condom and i didn't want to get pregnant. When i pulled my trousers up all i wanted to do was cry.
The next day he told me to ring him to see if i could go round his again. So i did and i said where are you and ill come meet you he said he was round the back by his mates. So i went round and he wasn't there. I rang him again and told me he was sumwhere else so i went there and he weren't there either. I thought he was going to dump me becasue he was being off with me.
The next day he asked me to go round his again so i did and again we did it. Then that night i was on msn and he dumped me saying he didn't want a girlfriend. Then a week later he had another girlfriend. Thats all he wanted me for knowing i was a virgin he thought he would take it away from me.
All im saying is don't do it with someone you don't love or only been with them for a little time. Make sure you trust and love the person. Also use protection.
Jenn
Hi my name is Jenn. i first lost my virginity when i was 14 years old to a 15 yr old.. acoupel monthes ago. i dont regret it at all because i had with a guy who i reallllly loved and still do. We had it on October 28, 2006.
We were at my house one night when my parents out my boyfriend and his 2 friends came over. my friend thats a girl was over that night to (who had sex with my boyfriends friend she JUST met =/) we were all drinking and stuff and thast when we decided to go upstairs to my room, even though i was drinking i new i was ready and wanted to do it. It was weird, we tried getting it in and it was really hard but then finally it went it and it did hurt..but it wasnt tooooo bad i did bleed alittle but i dont even think he noticed. after we did it we got up and he hugged me and told me he loved me and gave me a kiss.
Ever since then we had sex about 5 times? I love him a lot and will always we went through everything together even got in huge fights where we didnt talk for a while but we're good now and im so happy i waited to have it with someone who i truly love even though it was at a young age.
My advice for all u girls is to WAIT make sure its with a guy u love trust me you will feel really good about it! Dont do it with a guy u dont love you will regret it forever and feel dirty, serisouly make it be with someone u love, you dont wanna look like a easy whore who just got used do yaa!?!
~~~ Jenn <3
Liza
I am a wonderful girl. I have lived a clean life. The first time I had sex was last year March 2006. I was 21 and I am still 21 will turn 22 on the 6th of Feb 2007. I felt open ans ready for it because I loved Peter, he breath taking. Everytime I thought about him, butterflies in my tummy and I would glow some kind of glow I found extra oerdinarily beautiful.
Sadly I started growing PGL [swollen lymph nodes] and I went to the clinic where I did an HIV test and it was negative. That is something I took so much for granted, when he asked me how do I feel about my results, I just looked at him and said "darrrrrrrrre what do I think? I xpected them negative" today I want to swallow those words.
I was advised to come back after 3 months of anti biotics, what did I do? I was too smart according to me, I through away the tablets and this day it's too late. I went back 29 Nov 2006 after more developing Lymph nodes. I was advised to test, I was pissed. I asked if it's possible to be sick without HIV in this community? The nurse very sincerely calmed me down and explained to me what could be the cause of lymph nodes and I must admitt I got a bit shakey. I thought about Peter but that alone calmed me down, my man loves me, he wouldn't put me in danger.
I tested the 30th Nov after some preparation and talking my baby and I walked out of the center knowing life had just ended in that small room with counsillor. Peter called and I asked him to come, he couldn't. I got mad, I yelled and told him I was at the clinic. He said thats not something to make me shout, then I said "baby it's serious", to this very day in 2007 Jan 12 I have not seen him. He keeps on emailing me asking to take him back. I just want to cry even more because I tried to get some answeres and he gave me a very arrogant side of him I have never known in our relationship. He hurt me too much, more that I can bare sometimes.
Lord has told me I am a wonderful creature, an amazing daughter, that there are so many things that awaits me according to His plan not according to HIV AIDS statistcs, so I think I am a living testimony how God works miracles in our lives. I found myself crying bitterly at a despared state and when I stopped, I felt some peace take me to a place where God walks side by side as you.
I have't got enough strength to focus on Peter now. Actually when you test HIV+, u just find yourself in a lost world where no one knows what it's really like to be alive, you loose everything, you are suddenly in a very wrong place and everything just seems to going against you, when i THINK about myself before HIV came in, I know that somehow I lost self identity, I forgot what is self love, with all the knowledge I have, I should have known that even when u get so soaked in love that u are so vulnurable u can do anything, CONDOM is no harm, it does not limit satisfaction, it serves me to live long. How I regret being naive...u cannot imagine.
To all the positive people, don't stop loving, don't stop dreaming, HIV or not we are here to make it last forever and George Bush, to hell with him, spending money to kill than to give life to the needy. The world is full of evil and the people we love, adore and admire the most, they are the key to get life battles get through to us. Spread love but not HIV, no one deserves it.
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Tiffany
I am 13 at the moment...
My first time was with a guy I met at Homecoming. His name is Saul. He is 17 and well it was a terrible idea. Saul was the schools Cross Country Superstar. At the time I was the schools Soccer Superstar because I was the first girl in the 8th grade to make a Varsity sport for soccer. A match made in heaven right. wrong.
Saul and I both went to states for our school and I brought home the title and he didn't. Saul had his license and he took me out to a romantic dinner and a movie. Saul then takes me to a hotel. I of course unaware of what was happening fell right in to his trap.
I was scared out of my mind but in a way I was lucky b/c he told me he loved me. Saul is different then most dudes b/c he cares about the girl and not about what he is doing. Saul is the type where you can tell him anything. Saul had condoms.
When it stared it hurt like crazy i started cry b/c of the pain being so terribly bad and it was an awful pain that only you could experience. He was very smart about that b/c he knew i had huge dreams ahead of me.
After a couple of weeks Saul broke my heart. I haven't spoken to him since then and if that's how it is gonna be the n fine.
My moral is: be smart find the facts to help both people. Be safe and use Condoms!!!!!
Amile
Hello my name is Amile and I wish to share my story.
I've been 18 for awhile now and I would like to share my "first time" story with other teens. I lost my virginity at the age of 16 with my boyfriend (at the time) who was 15. We dated for almost six months before we decided to go all the way and we had oral previously to that. We also had know each other and were friends for years.
We talked about having sex for a few months and I decided that I was ready and my boyfriend and I agreed we wouldn't feel comfortable if I wasn't on birth control. I asked my doctor and I went through my first pelvic exam which terrified me, but ended up not being as bad as I though. I remember I had to wait about a month before I could start taking the pills and during that time my boyfriend and I came very close to having sex without any protection and his penis ended up touching my vagina and we both freaked out because there is always that chance I could become pregnant.
After I started taking my birth control I went over to my boyfriend's house one day and it happened. We started kissing and touching each other and had a good dose of foreplay, about 40 minutes, then I proceeded to put a condom on my partner. I failed miserably 3 times and my partner kept going soft from anxiety and nerves.
We tried again later and had more foreplay and this time we put the condom on properly, but he still was a little soft. I remember that it didn't hurt one bit and I was very surprised by the sensation sex gave me. The whole thing lasted 10 minutes and then we had sex 3 more times that night! However, I learned not to use condoms with spermicide in them and to use the bathroom after sex because I ended up with a urinary tract infection!
Two years later here I am writing about my first experience. I'm glad that I did it and I don't regret what happened because we were safe about it and I was ready. However, we recently broke up and let me tell you those wounds aren't healing. I feel as though he has a part of me and I have a part of him. The pain hurts and I still cry. As long as you realize that it might not last forever, the relationship, and if you are safe about sex, then it is a wonderful experience. I just wish breaking up was easier.
Used
Okay so my first time happened over summer. Both of my parents were away on trips and i had 2 houses all to my self. i was staying at my dad's house until my boyfriend came to pick up.
Once he picked me up we went driving to my mom's house which is much nicer and a little more comfortable. In my room. we got to my mom's house and neither of us knew what was going to happen because we had only been dating for a little while.
We started the night off by just watching TV and cuddling on the couch. All the lights were turned off and the only thing on was the TV incase someone noticed we were here. After watching TV for a while and cuddling we went into my room to go watch a movie. That didnt end up happening. we just started making out on the bed and kissing like crazy. Things started to move faster as we were kissing and heavily petting. He began to reach my shirt and under my bra and feel me up.
It was weird because it felt like he had no idea what he was doing. He couldnt even un hook my bra until 10 minutes later i took it off. anyway, i could tell he really wanted it but i wasnt going to give in just yet. i was still a virgin and i had never moved this fast with anyone. (very inexperienced) we kissed and petted for about another hour and i started to really want him. I ACHED FOR HIM! I NEEDED HIM!
He was on top of me kissing when i pushed him off and said i wanted to have sex. his face was PRICELESS! he said "right now?" i could tell he was excited. he knew i was virgin and i knew that he wasnt so i was excited cuz i didnt want to be with a guy that was a virgin. we started taking off our clothes and i got a condom from one of the drawers next to my bed. (i kept them there incase something like this was to ever happen. good thing)
I started to get under the covers and i was so nervous i thought i was going to throw up. no one had ever seen my body before except for me. my stomach was knots the whole time but i was already there so i just said what the hell! he stood up and put on the condom and got under the covers with me. it was the moment of truth! as i was laying under him completely naked staring into his eyes he positioned himself on top of me. he told me that if it started to hurt to tell him and he would stop.
He started to pump slow at first and he thenn he started to go faster. I told him to slow down and he did which was nice but i didnt want him to. I thought i was going to throw up from being so nervous and him just goin at it but thankfully i didnt. when he was about to cum he stopped and went to the bathroom.
i just sat there thinking to myself about just happened and all my knots in my stomach were gone know that it was over. once he came back we just laid in bed for the rest of the night. the feeling was so weird it didnt even feel like i thought it would. he didnt know much about sex by the stuff he was asking me and i felt weird the rest of the night.
we did had sex two more times the next night and the next night for the rest of the week but it still wasnt good. i was mostly doing it to pleasure him because i knew that he liked it. about a month later we broke up and i found out that he was just using me. apparently i was one of many girls that he has lied to and pretended to care about until he gets what he wants. i also found out that he uses girls on a regular basis like taking a shower.
i have learned more about life from him than i have from any one or anything in my whole entire life. i learned to completely have trust in a person before you give a part of yourself to someone you know will give a part back.
Ally
Hi my name is Ally .My first time was just a few months ago, I'm 14. Me and my boyfriend Alex who is 16, were hanging out like we always do and we had never really talked about having sex before but it came up.
We decided that for our 3 month anivercery we would have sex if I was ready. We were both virgins so I wasn't worried about getting a std, but we still used a comdom so I wouldn't get pregnant.
So on our anivercery I told my parents that me and Alex were gonna hang out during the day then I was going to sleep at my friends house.
So we met up and we started making out I was a little nervous but not 2 bad. So we went into his room and layed down on the bed and we took our clothes off. He put the condom on then we started having sex.
It hurt a little at frist but after a few minutes it started 2 feel really good. I bearly bled and it was a really good first time. My friends all had a really bad painful first time. So I don't regret having sex I wish I had waited a little longer but I was happy it was with Alex he was really sweet and caring.
Ellie
Hi, my name is Ellie, and this is the story of how I lost my virginity.
I'm 14 years old, and I knew this guy called 'Chris' (changed for privacy). He is also 14. We met when I joined his school when I was just 7. I had liked him for a while.
At a friends camping party in august 2006, we both got very drunk, and I asked him if he'd make out with me. He told me yes, and that he liked me as well. After a while we went into Chris' tent, and he asked me if I was ready. I knew what he meant. We did the whole foreplay thing, and then I remember him putting the condom on. I remember me saying that it hurt a lot, and he said I know. (we were both virgins)
anyway, the next day, he gave me the cold shoulder. he told me that we were a mistake, and it was going nowhere. about 2 weeks later, my period was due, and it didn't come. I was scared that the condom had split or something, but still I waited. It was hell.
after another 2 weeks I plucked up the courage to ask my friend to come with me to the school nurse to get a pregnancy test. She said okay, and we went. I wasn't embarrassed. the hardest thing was peeing in a cup.
It turned out that I wasn't pregnant, and I was lucky. I told Chris what had happened the next time I saw him, and he just said, 'but you're not, so that's okay.' I was so annoyed at him. I asked him what he would have done. He said that he would have thought about that if it had actually happened, and that made me really angry.
the moral to my story is: don't loose your virginity on a drunken one night stand, no matter how long you've known the guy. It can lead to terrible consequences, and a lot of hurt.
thank you for reading this,
Ellie
<3
Patience
Hi all, Id like to tell you about my 1st time.
I was out one night & met a guy i had a major crush on previously when I used to work at my old job. He used to come in a few times per week and we used to talk for ages and kinda flirt although i think he was clueless then.
Anyway I left the job to go back to uni and savery little of him after that for a long time, unitl we were out that night.
Me & my friends were talking to his group and we started chatting and messing and talking about "old times". When we were leaving he walked out along with me and we ended up seperated from the rest. It had started raining so we were sitting on a wall, keeping an eye out for the others and taking shelter under a tree. He asked me then how come I was single? I didnt really know how to answer that so i said "you tell me, you're a guy", he said he couldnt figure it out and was kinda grinning. Then he leaned in to kiss me.It was really tentative at first, like he was shy. Then I stood up in front of him and kissed him back.
We went back to his place and started making out on the couch and both confessed to our mutual interest before.
After a while, I said that id better go home given how late it was. He said "yea see its too late and cold and wet to be going anywhere" and was messing that he'd keep me warm. I didnt want to go anyway so after another while of touching each other, he beckoned towards the stairs.
With other guys id always worried about getting to this point but now it felt right. He was really goofy about the condom, trying to explain that he wasnt keeping them in storage cos he was going thru so many or anything. I didnt tell him that it was my first time and he's never asked since. It was really nice and didnt hurt at all. We talked for a long time after and spent the next day locked up in his house together............with some explaining to do to our friends!
That was a year and a half ago and we just got engaged.
I guess the moral of the story is "patience"
Kelly
Hi, I am Kelly, I am 23 years old and have never had sex. I would like to have sex, but only when the time feels right. I have had plenty of opportunity for one night stands over the years, but i've never gone beyond kissing, not because I don't want to. I am not particularly religious, I just believe that sex is special and should be shared with someone special and deserving of trust and intimacy. I lack confidence with myself and my body, making it even more difficult to let my virginity go. I also want to go to university soon and don't want issues such as unplanned pregnancy jeopardising my ambitions. By nature I have an indecisive personality, but sex is one thing i've always been clear about. I have been sexually aware for many years and truely hope that I will meet my soulmate someday soon.
I used to view still being a virgin at the age of 23 as weird, but why not wait? why be a follower of a crowd who may appear to be sexually active, but they also may not be being totally honest. Sex is special, it is the most intimate way of sharing and expressing yourself with someone. I probably look like your average girl, I am clothes size 10 and girly and fashionable. the only reason I have not had sex is through personal choice. Why not wait and make sex special? I am a bit concerned that it may hurt though as I know I'd be anxious and tense.
Also, being someone who has travelled to Africa and done aids outreach I am extremely aware of the dangers that can accompany sex if caution is not exercised. Please only have sex when you honestly feel you are ready and make sure you are protected, as I will do, when the right time eventually comes!!! In the meantime a sex drive can be dealt with in other ways than intercourse. Sex is special, if you mind, it matters!!!.
Sam
I would like to share my first experience with the other readers on this site, and perhaps to someone who is considering having sex for the first time. I lost my virginity when I was 17 to a past boyfriend I had been with for three years. During those three years he and I had a sexual relationship but did not engage in intercourse. Now, four years later, I do not remember that much of what happened. I do remember that shortly after we had sex we also broke up.
What I do remember is that it was unfulfilling. I had placed so many expectations on this one moment that it was impossible for it to live up to anything I imagined in my mind. All I could think of was how it was happening... in his college dorm room amidst smelly clothes, which was not how I imagined it. It was painful at first but I had done all this reading in preparation... three years of preparation... I relaxed as much as possible and from my position on top was able to control the speed and depth. I suggest it for any women having sex for the first time. Unfortunately, I barely had him completely inside of me and he was already on the verge of having an orgasm. One or two thrusts later and he was finished. It was not satisfying, not even close to how satisfying all the other things we did in the three years prior to that moment were. At that moment, I hoped that my love for him would take over and I would feel some sort of closeness, but it never came. I thought to myself, 'maybe it was the condoms... maybe I should switch birth control pills?' After a month of having quick boring sex, I thought maybe this is how it is supposed to be. We broke up a few weeks after our shared loss of virginity; partly because the sex was just not good.
Almost immediately I started to date one of my closest friends and several months into this relationship we had sex. I had no expectations and it was wonderful. That was more than four years ago and since then my lovely boyfriend and I have created a terrific, caring relationship with lots of awesome lovemaking.
One thing I learned is that sex really is not such a big deal. The implications that society gives us and what we learn in school make it this sort of beacon of morality which totally blindsides the fact that people should be making love for pleasure. Only you can know what makes you feel good and if there were better atmospheres to have these sorts of discussions at younger ages, I believe that more young people would be making wise decisions about their developing sex lives.
Consequences
I first had sex when I was 16 years old with a guy that I had been friends with all through middle school and lived up the street from me. We had talked the night before and had both decided that we were sick of being virgins. So, we agreed to meet the next day while our moms were out of the house together at a church event. I know that sounds horrible, but we wern't really thinking about that.
He came over in the morning and we started making out, and eventually had thrown our clothes all over my room. Then, unfortunately, he had to go home for an hour because someone was going to notice that he was gone. We planned to meet again in an hour, so we both got dressed and he left. I realized while he was gone that niether of us had a condom so I called a friend two streets down and got one from them, and then ran home.
He came back soon after and we repeated our morning deviance, but this time ended up having sex. It only hurt for a minute and it wasn't that long, but it was perfect for what it was. We just hung out in bed together afterwards for a while and talked and listened to the rain outside my open window.
We tried to be in a relationship for about a week afterwards but then we decided to break up because we realized that we were just using our relationship as an excuse to have sex. We realized we didn't want that and decided to just stay friends. The only problem was that I found out shortly afterwards that I was pregnant. So I ended up having to tell him and I "took care of it". Too bad the whole school ended up finding out and now I'm referred to by people who don't know me very well as "that girl that had an abortion that one year". It doesn't actualllyy bother me because I think all high school students are unintelligent unwashed miscreants, but I can't say that it hasn't affected me in any way.
He and I are still on good terms and talk every once and a while which is great, although we would never actually try to date.My best advice is to be really careful. Use a condom for diseases and get on the pill or some other form of birth control in addition to that because you really can't rely on condoms 100%. Other than that, sex is great, but only if you're ready!
Allie
hi, my name is Allie, and i lost my virginity at 17. I was with my boyfriend Sam, (we had been together for 5 months!)and he came over after we went to a movie. My parents were clueless because they went out to the neighborhood Christmas party (it was in December, when we "did" it) So, we went up to my room and started talking.
After a while, we were playing a game called the nervous game....it's a long story really, but we started playing it and he french kissed me. So then, we started making out constantly and he got on top of me on my bed. We were just making out, and then he rolled to the side, and rubben my back, and then my butt while we were still kissing.
He took of his shirt, and then took of mine, I thought this was as far as it would go for now but, he then started pulling down my pants, along with his! it felt so good, but when it came to the fact that I saw him putting on a damn condom, I got very nervous!!! He then, got back on top of me and was so sweet, he said "you can just tell me if it hurts." i loved him for his kindness! So he entered me. It felt like knives stabbing me in the stomach! it hurt so bad! I yelped and he pulled out of me. There was blood on the condom. I was mortified!
Though I am so glad to have gotten that over with. It is so hard to find your first time romantic, so dont get all excited...because maaaan it hurts, and make sure, most importantly, to USE A CONDOM! unless you want to get pregnant of course...
thanks for readin'
Allie